Been a while

So much has happened. Mainly, I've lost 95lbs since May 2008. I'm stalled right now. Haven't lost in 3 going on 4 months. Just gaining and losing the same 5lbs. I have scar tissue where my J-tube use to be and it hurts every now and then. Nothing they can do about it, I have to learn to live with the occassional pain.

Hopefully I'll be at goal by February, but I'm not gonna bank on it. It might take 2 years to get down to 140lbs. But I'll get there !!!

OMG

Has it really been that long?? Well. I'm finally under 200lbs. Wonderful onederland. But I'm at a stall. I feel like I'll never lose the rest of this weight. I've got 48lbs to go til goal. I hope to make it by the end of the year.

I'm battling depression with a new med. Deplin. Seems to be working so far, lets hope it continues to sway the demons.

Still fighting the 'Carb' fight. I'll win eventually. Not much else to say, here's a photo of me at 198lbs.

Onederland

Well, i've reached 'onederland'. And have been fluxing 2 pounds up and two pounds down for about two weeks. My fault, too many carbs. I weighed in at 198 one day and now i'm back too 201. But that's down from 202, so i'm getting back down there as I watch my carbs and try yet again too up my protein intake.

Walking

I've added walking and more protein too my daily regime. It's working pretty well. I'm 10lbs away from onederland. I haven't weighed under 200lbs in 20 years or more. It will be quite an accomplishment when i finally get there.

February

Not skinny yet. LOL. But I'm getting there. I loose so slowly. Lucky if I make 7lbs in one month. But at least I am loosing. I'm exercising now, walking 5 days a week. TRYING to add some strength work too.

Me and carbs are at odds. Need to find a better way of reducing them, but I cope. I'm on Sparkpeople.com, a great site for tracking food and exercise. Very motivational. I've been there about a week now.

Depression had it's grip on me yesterday. But today I'm feeling better. I weigh 211 now. Will NOT reach 'onderland' by March, but hopefully by June. I wanna be at or near goal by the end of the year. 

With the walking and all, I should be able too do it. I like being outside. Need another pair of sweats, the one's I have are falling off of me. I wear an 18 now. : )

There are days I regret my DS. Think it's gonna be the end of me. That I can't keep up with the nutritional requirements etc. And it scares me. But I keep plugging away. It's a love hate relationship. Hopefully it will get better when I get smaller in size. I still call myself fat. hate the way I look. etc. but it's all a head game. And I realize this...

Been a while

Well, I now weigh 213. I should reach onederland by March. I feel good, but I need too up my iron and vitamin D and calcium. I'm working on all three.

Still trying too get into the Ymca to exercise, it's just gonna take some time.

I can tolerate fish, and cheese and some meats. But chicken and roasts and such are still hard on the innerds. in time i guess.

still gotta watch my carbs. It's hard when you're diet is still limited. No more vomiting in the a.m. Praise god for that.

I can fit into a size 18 swimsuit. : ) Legs are getting thinner and stomach is going down. I don't think I'll have a lot of hanging flesh. 

Although I'm not loosing as fast as others, I am steadily loosing. Need too push more proteins and lessen the carbs. I can do this, I know I can.

I want onederland so badly. Hopefully, definately by April. When I see my surgeon again.

New Year... New attitude

Long time, no post... But I'm 5 months out and eating better than before. Still not exercising, but that will change soon enough. Still have difficulty with the abdominal muscles. 

I'm down to 220lbs. I hope that by the next time I see my doc, I'll be in onederland. 

No more vomiting, which is a blessing. thank god. Had to adjust my vitamins, more iron, C and D3 plus trying too up the calcium.

This should even everything out by the next time I see him. In February, my PCP is doing a check on my iron. If it drops again, I'll get infusions. But, we'll see.

My clothes are down to an 18/20. Wow, haven't seen this size since college.

My mood is better also. Things are finally looking up for me with this surgery.