Time is getting close

And I'm totally overwhelmed. Stress is something that's not good for me either. I'm feeling unsure and don't know if it's depression or what? I need a vacation from all this, I really do. 

I have 20 days 'til surgery and I can feel the urgency. I see the surgeon on the 31st, that's next week. That should be interesting enough. This thursday I see my primary doctor for my B12 shot, i also get to see if I've lost anymore weight.

So tired now, I just want to be done with it and on with my new life. Feeling better and looking better. And diabetes so far away from me.