waiting

i hate waiting. need new things to keep myself busy. three weeks, four weeks, five weeks. HOW MUCH LONGER?? UGGH. I don''t know. Everyone says it will go by fast. I sure hope so. Right now, it's creeping. 

I'm so occupied by the pain from the scar tissue, I don't know what to do with myself. Sometimes, it's just too much. Lower back pain. nerve pain. site pain. Darvocet helps but you have to overlap it. to stay pain free. and i don't wanna do that. cause the pain only lasts for about 2 wks. and i wanna know when it goes away. 

I guess when it stops waking me up at night.