interesting

would I be happy at the weight of 185lbs? personally, no. I wanna weigh around 150lbs. anything smaller and I would look death like. am i doing this surgery for the right reasons? who's to judge? I want to look better, feel better, take diabetes out of the picture, stop the family insults and just live for once. no more body aches. prettier clothes. all types of superficial and deep reasons. the list goes on and on.

my primary doctor is so supportive. my mom just wants me to not die on the table. my friends want me to be happy. so do my therapist and psych doc. I'm not telling one of my friends. She's negative about the whole thing and I don't need that vibe.

Either way. Tomorrow's a big day. Gotta rest up. Later.